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Ever think what would happen to your life if your mom or dad died? Well I wonder each day how different my life would be if at all IF my mom was around. She didnt get to see me score my first basket while I played basketball in school, she didnt get to see the last either on senior night, she didnt ever get a chance to see me drive nor did I get to drive her anywhere, she didnt get the chance of catching my first speeding ticket in the mail, she didnt get to see me adn my date for prom, she didnt get to see me in concert band while in high school, she didnt and wont get to see me in my own band, she wont ever hear the music that her own son help writes and see a talent I have for it, she didnt get to se her son graduate from culinary school, she wont get to see him graduate from IUP main, she didnt get to see me even graduate high school. These are a short list of things I could go on and on about that she wont or didnt get to see in my future or passed. All of these are moments you would like to have your parents be part of and sometimes you dont realize how much it would mean to you and I myself am the sameway but for example on senior night my sister had to accompany me with my dad instead of my mom. I love my sister that she did it but when your standing at half court with everyone looking at you and your parents and you realize your mom isnt there like the others its kind of a depressing feeling because instead of announcing mr and mrs reitz it went katlyn is accompanied by mr. reitz and his sister aly. I wouldve liked to have my mom there for moments like that especially, but non hodgkins lymphoma had other ideas. She fought off cancer throughout her life but finally when I was 14 he took her down but she did however go down with a fight because it took it longer than normal to get to her the Dr's said. So the next time you say you hate your mom or dad and wish they wernt always bugging you and irritating you and you get frustrated to the point where you hate them and wish they werent around...think again and realize they actually mean alot more to you than you actually think.

I believe this is probably theeee most noticed thing that I went through while younger/childhood and it scard me for life but at the same time alot of ppl dont recover from somehting like this and its a downward spiral for the rest of there life, fortunately my sister and I recovered well and have shown how strong we are and were stronger people now because of it, on top of my gram dying the year before with lung cancer and my pop-pop jerry (dads dad) dyed because of a cancer as well. For awhile it seemed as if someone had to die in our family with some sort of cancer. But we turned out ok and I know we did because we both have been told so.